First things first

Why write? Bacon's question. Already, by citing another's words one has distanced oneself -mercifully-from oneself, created a second space, a place for second thoughts. Ariel had suggested that this might be a form of therapy, catharsis and not just another plunge into narcissism....

Does writing reveal or hide one's true thoughts?
In the blank spaces that are now crowded with words, perhaps I can add but a full stop.

Latham's Full Stop. A large black circle, smudged at its perimeter, a crackled surface, on a vast white canvas. ' A least event or least occurrence. The bare minimal appearance of not-nothing on an infinite, empty landscape'. But also a dark planet (a solar eclipse?) that magnetizes a few small satellites. A whole world to itself. Full stop. A dark nothing that draws one into what lies
behind the surface (jonah's night of the soul). The black sun marks the end of time (Revelations) and is the end of a sentence, where one does one's time.

A gateway, a port hole. To step through it. A shadowland. Not just a lost continent but a lost content. Like Colonel Fawcett who searched for the lost city of Z in the amazon (" the last great blank space int he world"). Why 'Z'? Because that's where the traveler's journey is done. But he too is drawn into it, disappears (1925), setting off a whole chain of frantic searches, a series of unforseeable accidents. First things first of all magnetize second thoughts, other worlds. We search for the person who searched for the person ..who searched for that dark heaven. A circle of lost people.

We always search for what is not there, or rather, not here. Escape: our first instincts. Fawcett is told: " you will never find Z as long as you look for it in this world."

The Romantic always steps back into inner space, that first world; the reactionary into outer space, dying without love.