If the deal doesn't go through- which is, I suspect, what some who want to impose yet more 'austerity' on the country really want- then things will only get worse.
I've seen a lot more homeless people about in Woodford. One man, youngish, can hardly speak, he;s in such a bad state. Tears just well up in his eyes. Just saw a middle aged man, slumped to the floor, his legs askance, as he sang into a traffic cone (as if he was some kind of aboriginal). Absolutely tragic to witness.
Around Bank a solid looking man stumbles on to the train, as if he's been pushed. He speaks with a wonderfully rounded intonation, full of confidence and old-world solidity, the words ringing off his lips; he still retains his Mancunian accent and the looks of man who has years of practical intelligence behind him. Not a banker, that's too abstract. The man who had pushed him has a narrow face and sports an old, used black thick coat. He hisses and foams at the mouth, shaking his fist at the northerner (who laughs at him and then mocks him). The rat-like man then starts shaking his fists at God (this is almost a caricature). Some people try to quietly move away from him. The hissing and swearing and cursing goes on, like a poor silent movie. The northerner (who looks a bit Kashmiri, now that I think of it) turns to his wife (who, in her leopard-skin top is obviously above all these shenanigans) and mutters something in German.
I'd just got back into Laurus. In fact, there's a peace and simplicity and gentleness to it that makes me want to forget about the so-called real world altogether. I lift my eyes to look at the German-Kashmiri-northerner and feel like telling him, "Give it a rest, mate, he's obviously not right", but I fear the other one will hear me and turn on me. Like everyone else in the carriage, I don't even bother rolling my eyes. "You pratt," he says, as he gets off with his wife/mistress/partner. Unfortunately, unbeknown to them, the rat-man also gets off at the same station.
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S's wife was punched outside her home (next to mine) by two east Europeans. He looked at me exasperated the next day and said, "You know what, Karl, something's broken. I don't know what it is, but there's something not right. I was going to spout off something about us not being in sync with the cosmos, or how the Qur'an talks about the "scattering" at the end of days then think to myself, I'll only come across as mad. If I said that back in the land of the pure they'd just look at me and say, "Well, yeah, like what took you so long to get top that conclusion?" Keep quiet and cut the tree. It doesn't budge and the three of us expend huge amounts of energy to uproot the bugger. I wanted to say, in an old and wise Russian accent (or maybe Jewish): "Every living wants to cling to the earth with the last ounce of its resolve." Totally superfluous and uncalled for, so I let it go.
Yes, I do manage to purchase Sharov and Kempowski. I even find the shop without thinking, my instincts back to normal. Space, that I can deal with. Time: now that's the problem!