"All truth is on the boundaries."
Tillich.
When you were younger you thought that made a lot of sense. Always being an outsider, a backbencher, in some way someone on the margins, the sentiment appealed to you. Life on the periphery; renouncing centre.
Of course, the idea of constant experimentation or the thought that truth had to come through suffering didn't much appeal to your conservative instincts but, no, when it came to it resistance to names and definitions, to fixed categories and the various boxes people wanted to put you in resonated with some u formulated desire to remain in the shadows. And could there ever be any questioning, curiosity or doubt if we weren't prepared to let go, if we weren't willing to not look back? As Auden would have it: not a possession of the truth..a lonely kind of freedom, perhaps?
We tend to think that we live in an age of extremes ( partly, no doubt, because capitalism has had a levelling effect- some might add: a levelling down effect). Do we really live in a "risk society"? Could it not be that our fascination with extreme voices, images, thrills is really just a response to our profound boredom? We're bored out of our minds and bore one another endlessly. Under such circumstances there is, as Pope Francis suggests, the allure of darkness.
Why did you clime the mountain?
I don't know. Because it was there.
The exotic and erotic as a way of escaping ourselves. Frivolity and lightness are pursued instead of facing up to the possibility that we are " weighty creatures" with a nature that points us to the good- if only we could find our true image, our unique panache. The extreme individualism of late capitalism actually produces a terrible inward conformity- which is to be expected given the reign of matter and the hold of mechanism on our thinking.
" Tourism is the march of stupidity"
DeLillo.
Desperation and anxiety can be marketed as long as they're authentic. Confess all, let it all hang out ( a legacy of the sixties?). In a therapeutic society reticence is merely a form of repression. You are everything, the teacher, the student. Ultimately, coz you're worth it, baby. Self- help books proliferate because there's not much of a self left. Obsession with the details, the gossip and the jumble in our lives is really the product of a reality in which we are little more than ghosts in a machine.
An interesting article on Melissa Broder in the New Yorker.. Interesting because it reflects, you think, something of our current sensibilities, our narcissism and shallowness. I liked you more when you were a virtual entity. The sad story, and it is a terribly sad story, of a young woman addicted to drugs, alcohol and now the Internet. The need for (online) recognition that increasingly blights the lives of young adults.A line from someone writing in 1939:" the intellectual and spiritual hopelessness of the current period". At the level of society that's surely right, isn't it?
Yesterday at the V+A you saw a young woman in shorts holding an iPad at eye level . She walked like a zombie, her arms fully extended, clutching on to the infernal machine tightly with her outstretched hands. She turned the machine a full 180 degrees trying to capture every moment. Asia, South East Asia..been there, "done that". And that's what we've all really been reduced to in some sense: passive recipients of an endless stream of information, unable to listen, look or talk properly.
Guarding the eye in the age of show. Illich, as always, was ahead of the curve. Restraint means one doesn't always try to get ahead of oneself. To keep pace with your stride.
From a Muslim perspective there is the idea that our hands, our tongue- our bodies- will bear witness to all we did and didn't do in this life.Balance and moderation are something that stand opposed to the manufactured frenzy of our times. In truth, ultimate boredom and and a profound restlessness are two sides of the same coin. A genuine striving and dynamism is the polar opposite of a directionless and slavish following of desires that are manufactured by powerful people and that lead us nowhere. "Pushpin is as good as poetry". And boredom is not the same as patience, and a world away from the ability to live within our limits, the capacity and the desire to recognise and acknowledge that we live in this place, this time, and it is only for us to live well.
By chance you listened to some ragas the other day and felt the sleep of the senses. Something so dull and dulling about the " mystical East". At the V+A a performance of some Hindu myth which was so naff that Ubo was forced to ask: who allowed these people to peddle their propaganda? In nearly 50 years I've never heard him say a single word against any other religion. In fact, he's so balanced, my Jew, that his strongest criticism is always reserved for Muslims (who he sees as " junglis"- and who can blame him!).
We now face the prospect of every second of our lives being filled with junk. Bits of information, trashy news, violent and pornograhic images, advertising jangles and music, music everywhere- on the go, in the high streets, in the car, at home, drowning out the very possibility of silence and calmness. You begin to wonder if fiction isn't a higher order swindle. We want the moral imagination widened by it, we want a finer sense of 'inwardness' from our reading; in short, we want a religious experience without God. Worse, or possibly worse, we want to be entertained, to pass time, to forget our own lives and our own obligation to live a rich life.