Wednesday, May 28, 2008

An Enchanted Place and Time


He said hello and felt awkward and unhappy suddenly, because it was a sort of goodbye they were saying and they didn't want to think about it. So they stood around, and waited for somebody else to speak.


Pooh brought the chocolates and bitter tea with him...such a generous heart was to be found behind all that fur!


"You are a faithful servant, bear", said Christopher.


Pooh (or bear-Christopher always liked to call his friends different names) was very happy, even though he didn't quite understand. Pooh thought: how wonderful it would be to have a Real brain which could tell you things. "But what is meant by 'real'? ", he asked himself, assuming Christopher could read his thoughts. "And what do you mean by "faithful" ? "


And he took a stick and touched Pooh on the shoulder, and said "Rise, Sir Pooh de Bear, most faithful of all my Knights".

But Pooh was saddened by this and kicked the ground.

"Am I a Knight amongst Knights?"

And now it was Christopher's turn to misunderstand.

"The night is also a sun"

"Am I your child, then?", said Pooh, equally confused.


Pooh wondered if there was a place where what he said would be finally understood.

"There is one such place!", said Christopher excitedly. "I shall take you there".

And Pooh wondered to himself why everyone didn't live there if this place really existed.

"Oh Pooh, you're so mistrustful! "

Pooh, or Bear as his friends liked to call him, held out a paw but Christopher hesitated. "No, no clinging on!"

Pooh was saddened by this and wondered why Christopher's voice was so hard today.

And then seeing this Christopher tilted his head so that his chin rested on his neck and said the same words again, but this time in a hushed voice and ever so gently: "No dear Pooh, no clinging on". And even though he still didn't quite understand and never would, he knew that Christopher meant well.

Christopher Robin was going away. Nobody knew why he was going; nobody knew where he was going.
Pooh gave Christopher a 'going-away' present (although he didn't want him to 'go-away') . He was always helping Christopher like that. It was a blank piece of paper. It's a comforting sort of thing to have, said Christopher, folding up the paper, and putting it in his pocket.
~
And they walked side by side, listening to all the things you can't hear.
Christopher Robin told Pooh many things. And they laughed together, each making the other one happy. And by-and-by Christopher Robin came to an end of the things, and was silent, and he sat there looking out over the world, and wishing it would not stop.
~
But Pooh was thinking too, and he said suddenly to Christopher Robin,
"I think I know you now".
~
Then he began to think of all the things Christopher Robin would want to tell him when he came back from wherever he was going to, and how muddling it would be for a Bear of Very Little Brain to try and get them right in his mind. "So, perhaps," he said to himself, "Christopher Robin won't tell me."
~
The he wondered if being a Faithful Knight meant that you went on being faithful without being told things. "But that boy was so tricky! How could he trust him to always look out for me", Pooh thought to himself.
~
Finally they came to the place that Christopher had mentioned, but Pooh was disappointed since it looked like any other old place to him. Then, suddenly again, Christopher Robin, who was still looking at the world with his chin in his hands, called out "Pooh!"
~
"Yes?" said Pooh
"When I'm--when--Pooh!"
"Yes, Christopher Robin?"
Pooh waited for him to go on, but he was silent again and he could never really understand him when he became silent.
"Pooh, when I'm--you know--when I'm not---will you come up here sometimes?"
"Just me?"
"Yes, Pooh."
"Will you be here too?"
"Yes, Pooh, I will be really. I promise I will be Pooh."
"That's good," said Pooh.
" Pooh, promise you won't forget about me, ever. Not even when I'm a hundred."
~
Pooh didn't understand figures very well and thought that Christopher was already seventy or sixty at least, the way he was always talking about serious things.
"How old shall I be then?"
"Ninety-nine"
Pooh nodded.
"I promise, " he said.
"Pooh, whatever happens you will understand, won't you? "
~
For once Pooh was silent and thought that this one time he could say that it was Christopher Robin who asked too many questions, not him. But he let it pass because he didn't want to hurt his friend.
~
"Understand what?", said Pooh.
~
And then Christopher noticed how tattered Pooh's red waistcoat was. But it's fading colours made it all the more beautiful, like a rose that is dying. He took off his blue raincoat and gave it to Pooh. Still with his eyes on the world Christopher Robin put out a hand and felt for Pooh's paw.
~
Then he turned his back to Pooh and walked away, so that Pooh wouldn't see the tears welling up inside. Pooh asked, "Are you sad now?" but he didn't hear him.
Pooh walked with his slouched shoulders to a nearby tree and sat under it, with his back against it. He felt sad and funny at the same time. And then he came to understand that this most ordinary of places was truly enchanted. For this is where he first met Christopher, and this is where he last saw him..and this is where he would return, when he came back from wherever he was...
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As Time Goes By - Ibrahim Ferrer - Jaxxs Latin Collectionz

5 comments:

Roxana said...

b! what's that song doing here? it might be one of the most beautiful ever written, but it still should be forbidden, so sad so sad. and besides, that's no way for you to feel, my oldest friend :-) may I suggest that you take it away from here or else, ... I'll have to find myself a recipe book and bake 1000 cinnamon rolls and have them sent over to you, maybe the ones over there have lost their magic power hmm? but believe me, believe me, you just don't want this to happen, even one of them might prove too much for you to handle :-) soooo?

as always, R.
ps. do tell cristopher, if you happen to see him, to look beyond the blue horizon, where the silence blooms more beautifully than anywhere else. please.

Sadia Ajaz said...

Good work b :).

Best Wishes,
Astarte.

billoo said...

Thanks , S-although I'm not quite sure what you mean by "work". How are you?

You know, this is supposed to be my last post (again?! I hear you say) but even then I can't stop adding things (and even this comment section looks like an alluring white space..damn that word 'orr' ! :)]

How simpler it would be if we could just ask funny questions-like an economist or a trader: "would you like to purchase..." and then be done with it. Never quite did work out what blogging was about!

But then again, I've read some blogs which have some stunningly beautiful words and images so that we, with our furrowed brows, folded arms, gnarled fingers, crossed legs, tangled hair, knotted heart, and twisted-tongue are completely opened up.

And perhaps behind the words, as behind a dark mirror, we catch a glimpse of a style of soul. So that even if the words fade we *always* remember the person that wrote them. As if behind the black ink there is a porcelain hand.

As the swami once said: life is a dream, and within that dream is another dream and that is, ultimately, what is most real (no matter what grown-ups tell you!)

Roxana, hello. Good to hear from you after all this time. I thought you had disappeard (like some sort of master magician)

No, C.R. doesn't want any more c.r.'s! He left them for Pooh who has probably, by now, polished them off! :)

Just spoke to him by sheer co-incidence and he said after reading my post, "true blue" , he cannot look beyond the horizon or at any more colours, since he's still too sad -though he doesn't like to admit it.

He did ask me very specifically though, as if it was of immense importance, to tell Pooh not be sad. I think we should let him go on his way, singing the song of the poet: 'I need you, I don't need you'.

Both of you,

keep well.

b.

Roxana said...

hi :-)

I've posted for you... :-)
as for the rest, let me think, maybe I'll come to it later :-P and don't even imagine you can try to negociate with our graceful but deceitful and clownish lot, we do this for millenia after all... a puny phd doesn't give you the ability to handle such a task, I'm afraid! :-)
take care, R.

Roxana said...

finally! thank you!!!!! :-) (even if I love that song above all). morning! :-)
yes, I know you asked antonia the same thing, and I know what you answered! :-P

of course - solaris and ikiru, I like dreams of lot, also by kurosawa. I love the kawabata that I have on my profile more than anything. but I warn you, it is heart-tearing! especially that you are so unimaginably old :-) and "thousand cranes" also, by the same. and I think you would love ugetsu monogatari - it made me both cry and be lost in awe in front of such beauty.

and I was 10 or 11 when I loved jane eyre! :-) but antonia is reading now a prequel by jean rhys, and says it is wonderful and I should read it. anyway, it would take us ages to talk of books and films, a time that we don't have. but why lament? [even if I do, but that's another story, of no interest to you :-)]
so keep well you too. R.