The fox was sadder than I thought. Her heart was gentler than I had taken account of. The fox was sadder than my thought. Her heart I had taken.
The blue fox could not be trapped. The blue fox was a trap herself! "Kill me!" she said. And something in him died as he pulled the trigger.
He climbed to the top of the mountain to see her better. But he ended up seeing only himself. A fine blue thread, she wove into his heart.
"This lush, luxuriant tail of yours, it must be worth something?"
"Only if you keep me alive," she cunningly replied.
He sat there, looking through the ice, through the snow, his life carried forward in the snowstorm. For a moment she opened the door, walked daintily into the swirling snow. "This white room of yours is a bit bare, isn't it?" she teased. But he imagined a chair and a table for her and poured her some green tea. The first hint of spring in her heart appeared again.
She seemed far away. She seemed close by. He saw time falling to the ground and conversed with her in a dream.
'the night is so dark
the way so short
yet you do not wake against my heart'
He knew she must go. For a while he traced her footsteps in the snow. He was sadder than the fox had thought. His heart she had taken.
2 comments:
Excellent blog.
Are you a kashmiri? Are you a kashmiri speaking kashmiri from kashmir?
I have trawled blogs of late looking for kashmiri bloggers and a page opened. Quite a few people in the UK claim to be kashmiris, but only a few of those are natives from the valley of kashmir. Speaking to a native speaker yesterday, I was reliably informed that kashmiri is only spoken in the valley and the rest of the ethnicities speak other languages, like Dogri, I was told.
I have found out that kashmiris consider only speakers of the language as genuine kashmiris, independent of racial characteristics. I am interested in the field of social anthropology and am currently gathering data on SAINTHOOD and sufi practices amongst south asian minorities here.
The valley of kashmir is distinct from the state of kashmir as I have found out and also in the middle of it. Interestingly, kashmiri speakers consider themselves to be closer to central asian culture rather than the distinct south asian culture we see here.
Anyways, I have found a few bloggers and wanted to correspond with them. Please leave a message here if you are a native speaker. Much appreciated.
Dear anon, thank you for dropping in. I am Kashmiri but do not speak the language and my family moved years ago (from a small place near Srinagar).
Yes, I think most of the desis in the UK are mirpuris and not from the valley.
I've heard Mark Tully say the same thing about the links with Central Asia (for example, the chanting at the end of prayers appears to be unique-influenced (possibly) by Buddhism.
Good luck with your research!
Best wishes,
K.
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