fixations

Late 14c., fixacion, an alchemical word, from M.L. fixationem (nom. fixatio), noun of action from pp. stem of L. fixare, frequentative of figere "to fix" (see fix). Used in the Freudian sense since 1910.

Are there people without fixations? Is not the constant denial of fixations itself a fixation?

There are words, there are words we repeat to ourselves, to others, as if they were like us, or would like us. Everyone needs a fix 'cos everyone's broke. Spent.

A phrase, a word, your signature. What is the word or phrase that is you? For fuck's sake. Repetition and ritual. Need I say it again.

Epitaphs:
Death isn't all it's cracked up to be.
I want my money back!

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Does death, then, have the final word, like a mask with its fixed expression? Something not to be repeated (or even spoken)?Perhaps then.And yet death is the fixation! 'The point of all points', the ultimate 'brokenness' that cannot be fixed. Aren't our fixations so many distractions from it, our way of extending the moment? Two ways: religion, art, abstract thought, as a way of detaching oneself from life; pure excess as a way of being absorbed in the moment, of forgetting that it will not last.

Why are you throwing this corn around?
To keep the tigers away.
But there are no tigers here.
It must be working then!

But what if you're fixated by someone? Breathlessness. Asphyxiation. Suffocation. Wonder, not finding its expression in life, turns to stone, becomes hooked to an 'object'. Does one end up killing the 'thing' one loves?