hard to know if the line (or time) takes me away from you, or to you, he thought to himself. hide and seek; this desire to find you, to lose oneself. for a recluse, a line is a ladder, is an opening to another world; a word, a smile, the kindling of the heart, ties that would bind. bound and free, like a floating bridge that is at once a place where people meet, and simultaneously something that vanishes before your eyes. but the ladder is itself the world...
his eyes too dream-filled to think clearly. condemned to think of escape, to think that beauty or greatness is to be found in books or images or that one's emotions would be found mirrored in a song. and the inward life of a recluse is full of such fantasies and projections because there is, ultimately, only the inward life.
but he thanks the stars, the line of wavering stars that were his; outside, people move about mechanically with a blank look, and an unfaithful heart. it is wrong to say that nothing happens without words or a witness, or that there can be no movement when the body is still...the ladder was a door, a door that led to another room. he looked around this room that was so familiar only to notice that all his possessions had been stolen. but she did leave a mirror at least: 'look at you, think of me!'
it would not be here
if you were here.
what is remembered
is love.
---ken irby
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it would not be here
if you were here.
what is remembered
is love.
funny, but i have always had this impression about you that if you were presented with the fulfillment of a dream, a dear dream, you would rather say no - and prefer to continue lamenting about not having that dream fulfilled :-)
perhaps is this what wisdom is? knowing that a dream fulfilled will only bring disappointment in the end, as nothing can be as imagined?
interesting that you should say that, doc. since other ppl have said that to me as well. no, don't think it's wisdom at all...not in my case, anyway..just plain old jewish restlessness. wisdom would be in saying 'yes' to life and not just 'no'. i guess this unconsciously cam out since there's only one line about 'ties that bind'. i dunno. maybe we want both. have u heard that nick drake song/ it's one of my favourites..."yes and no were in her eyes"
just thought: the allama once said; even if the divine reveals His Face, I'll still take 'perhaps' or 'maybe'.
and now to say yes...to scrambled eggs, hash browns, baked beans and sausages!
is there a typical romanian breakfast? don't say you're not really into breakfast and spoil a beautiful friendship over all these years! :-0
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